ACALLOWYOUTH

Tragedy

2012-02-06T19:55:00.006+08:00

Ghost Rider 2 Spirit of Vengeance, it falls on 17 Feb.

17, it has always been a significant date to me. For the past approximately 6 years.

Dear you, I’ve been going through shits after shits and im going crazy because of you. Heartache after heartache after what you've put me through. All i need is just an explanation, not excuses. An explanation that will reassure me, cool me down and just make me feel a lil bit better. A sentence that will leave a lil bit of hope or faith for me to still trust you. I guess it really doesn't matter of how my feelings are towards you right?

'Tak pernah ke kau pikir nak have a family dengan dia'
I would be lying if i say it didn't even cross my mind. 2 years is already long enough for me to think about it, what more 5 years+. Have a kitten together, making him breakfast and cuddling together. I'd even wanted to bear his kids, how our kids will look like, having his hair, my eyes,his nose, my lips. Yes, i was thinking that far. I've always wonder how my life would be if i had broken up with him. How will i go through my daily life without him, Will i be the typical normal happy-go-lucky girl whom i was?

I don’t know how to react right now, everything seems so difficult for me to go through. From school, free time. The thoughts of you did not even leave me even for one second. Going out at night just to cool my mind down. Doing things that I really didn’t like to do. Why am I behaving like this. Even I myself couldn’t answer it.

If this is how this ‘relationship’ of us is going too, I hope we will not meet any longer in the near future. I can’t bear the heartache; I can’t possibly go through this pain over and over again. Maybe this relationship was a mistake from the start after all. And maybe, I love you more than I love myself, more than I love my family. Yes, you were even on top of them. You were all that I needed :’(

You said you will be there for me 24/7. but. you lied. you din even kept your promises :'(

And yes, I was too soft-hearted

Promise. Promise that this will be the last time.Promise that today will be the last day. I won't cry for this kind of plight.

“Allah has already written the names of your spouse’s for you. What you need to work on is your relationship with ALLAH SWT. He will send him to you when you’re ready. It is a only a matter of time” :SHEIKH MAMDOUH

2012-02-05T14:17:00.002+08:00

If you are reading this, kin enough to know how well i am right now, Straight up, im not. I am not doing any better.

Broken promises. Being lied. Being scolded. Non of us human beings want it.

I guess it doesn't ring a bell to you right? Well then

Bitter Heart

2012-01-31T22:17:00.002+08:00

'My bitter heart is getting just a little fragile'

It would nice if i can occupy myself with work. work. and maybe more work. Dear manager, when are you going to call me up?

Bam!

2011-11-20T02:03:00.002+08:00

Dear world.

I've missed my long rapunzel-like hair that took me about 5 long years to grow that long. And i missed people calling me rapunzel =( serve me right for cutting it. BOO!

BUT! On the brighter note hair can still grow =) I’ll just need to wait for another 3 to 4 more years for it to mature -.-“

Grades couldn’t get any better I guess. And at this rate, I don’t think I am capable of getting myself into a decent university. BOOOO! The modules that I’m taking are hard like rock. What more, I have no, nothing, absolutely no background knowledge on biology and trust me; you won’t know or realise how envious I was at those smarty in my class. They are all so well spoken knowledgeable and really intelligent that it makes me so apparently small, lost of words, and making me more of an introvert. BOOOO =( I don’t even go out for breaks and lunch just to understand the problem. BOOOOOO! =( I miss my year 1 sem 2 classmate and year 2 sem 1 classmates =( I bet they don’t miss me as much as I miss them. Sharks!

Chukahae! , the brother of mine is going to get engage in a few weeks time. And probably in 7 months time he is going to tie the knot. I can’t possibly bug him for money each time. I want to work, no, I must/need to find a job to sustain my finance. BOOO! No more bugging him of sandals. No more bugging him of spectacles and mostly, No more bugging him for money.

Yeaa. Its all about the money money money. We need the money money money.As I grew older, I’ve become more of a money minded person. And I came to realise that everything revolves around money. We definitely need money to survive in this era. Food prices are increasing, the technologies that we are using and stuff like that, they all require money money money. Ouhmann. I badly need to get myself a decent job. Pretty please.

Sincerely, Nurylmok

Dear You

2011-11-08T11:19:00.003+08:00

Dear you,

I've realized something. You've change me to a somewhat decent lady now. Once i was someone who knows no boundaries of being really humiliating/ spiteful . Gosh, from being really tomboyish, having really short hair, walking like a gangster and behaving like a lunatic to a lady i am now. Or maybe, its not you, maybe its due to the environment that i am in now, the situation or hardship that i had gone through. What ever it is, in a way, you did play apart in the changing me. (awwwww) Thank you for the hardship that you make me go through(hehe).
For a minute, an hour, a day, and maybe almost a month, the feeling was gone and all that is left was hatred, revenge and more hatred. But after all of that, we still got back together. Why is that so? How can it happen? woooh! But let me tell you here in advance, if anything like this would happen again, i'll be really in lost of words. So, Dear you, ILOVEYOU

Jar of hearts

2011-04-26T13:41:00.001+08:00

Im too naive to think that everything will fall to its place. I know where i stand.

bbyboo

2011-02-25T22:06:00.004+08:00

We rarely meet up, we barely communicate.
I miss the quality time we used to spend together, the exchange of messages.
We used to share stories,be is sad or happy.but.
Everything is totally different now compared to five years ago.
I miss you Gerard Xavier McCall

and i don't wish for my feelings to waver

Love

2010-12-23T22:46:00.004+08:00

Happy Belated Birthday NurSyahidah. I know im sucha drama Queen and i keep on adding and sharing problems to you =( I love you cause you make me look tall ! hehe, you know why i love you! and all the memories since the first time i know will never be forgotten! You know,the most memorable, sweet and sour ones, will always be in my heart. Chey.

Happy 18th birthday darlink!

Sis signed me up for a sundown marathon run which will be held this coming May. A 21KM run. i hope i can make it. Two/three more day and i'll be leaving for holiday <3

Dear Santa;What i want for Christmas ,is for my boyfriend to treat me better.Aside loyalty, nothing else other then care and concern. Thats not to much to ask, right?or is it?

heart

2010-12-19T04:06:00.005+08:00

I decided to revive my blog. TOO many memories that,i cant seem to bring myself to delete it.=/
Reminiscing previous events, drama,anniversaries,birthdays,etc.I've found bunch of pictures that i didn't even knew existed . See how much of a help a blog is ^_^

I finally tried out the recipe that i learnt few months back. With the help of big sis i manage to actually cooked the bolognese sauce.Yummy!

10 tomato diced
4 medium onion diced
7 to 8 garlic
a few grams of meat
a plate of diced carrot
2 tins of tomato paste
1/2 a tine of tomato puree
3/4 tomato sauce
1 glass of water
sugar
salt

i think that's about it.Phew!i hope i don't forget the steps to actually cooked it the way it's supposed to be cook.

Moving on, its holiday season.yea aah!i don't feel like attending any school event or any co-curriculum activity.I just wanna rest at home and be like snorlax!Best. A week more and I'm getting my getaway! yeahness<3>

acallowyouth.tumblr.com

2010-11-09T22:09:00.002+08:00

This is what i call self-proclaim. gosh. i feel so bimbotic today.

BITCH.

2010-11-07T22:04:00.005+08:00

If you're fat, im enormous.

If you're fat, im like a walking fishball.

If you're fat, im like a dark chocolate pork.

what more, youre 5 inches taller then me.And thats make me like a Humpty Dumpty.

Whats the low self esteem for? Be OPTIMISTIC bitch.

Be happy and live life like theres no tomorrow.

However, if you are really paranoid of the way you look, dont worry, im like eight digits away from you, 400m away from your house. just beep me if you wanna play some balls.okieee. Love you bitch.

Ego

2010-09-24T00:04:00.005+08:00

When i meet you,
can you sing for me ?
can you show me that slumber face?

When i meet me,
can you hold my hand tightly and i'll hug you arm like how i used too?

When i meet,
can you give me a bear hug?
can you plant a kiss on my forehead?

When i meet you,
can we not fight?

wait, will i even have the slightest mini chance to even meet you?

i remembered what you said. But im sorry to say that im too stubborn to stop continuing.

those days

2010-09-16T01:58:00.003+08:00

the truth is, it has dried up.but why do this tears keep flowing down?

why does it feel that the word goodbye is harsher then bye?

time will heal

2010-09-02T02:13:00.003+08:00

I'm Sorry =/

Bohoooo, I've never been so sure of my decision.I've never been this stubborn before.I've never thought that i would stick through this decision for a long period...Causeifcukinmissyoubadly='(. I never thought that i would do this to you, i never thought that i would received equivalent punishment from you too ... Causewewerefcukindifferentbackthen='( I remember every detail that i wish to remember, the good time and i tried to throw all the bad ones but they stubbornly stayed...helpme..ourlatestconversationwaspainfulformeandimsorry=( Everthing happens for a reason.

2010-07-04T10:37:00.001+08:00

2010-07-04T10:37:00.000+08:00

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2010-06-18T00:20:00.005+08:00

They say that love is blind.

Date today was awesome. We caught 'She's out of my league'.Damn the movie was hilarious.apart from that,Toured around shopping centres which we rarely do together and dinner. A lovely first date since a long long long time ago=D

...

Someone told me to update my dead blog.what can i say,im a busy girl.School to work and more school.so sian.Anyways,Received 3 of my UT results. I was expecting for a bad results,but why was i sad when i saw it?bohoo.

he was back the other day and he look like an obese monk.so funny.hmmm.i bet he lose a lot of weight already.

=(

2010-06-04T23:46:00.004+08:00

A.F- So, are you gonna miss me when im gone?
me:don't ask me stupid question.
A.F-Its a logical questions
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..
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A.F-You still have yet to answer my question.
me:OBVIOUSLY I WILL MISS YOU RIGHT.I AM YOUR SISTER SIA :(

Within 2 to 4 day, im gonna lose two brothers.
i feel so empty now.
No more quarelling with him.
No more me asking for money each time i meet him
No more ironing of clothes for him.
No more him asking me why the sad face =(
No more shouting at him to get out of my room
No more waking him up
No more pampering me and
No more him calling me JAN/JANOT

SIGH.

Bro,can i still celebrate our birthday together?
bohoooo

Onamana

2010-05-13T20:51:00.003+08:00

I cant help it if i hate you. I cant take it when you kept on bugging me. I know youre drop dead gorgeous. I know youre drop dead rich. But thats not everything you know. Gosh, i feel like im repeating sec one again. And that im close with one indian, one chinese and one malay.

My intuition tell me that you dislike me.Well, its not 100% credible though.geez.

However, the good news is that, i have my own special cliques which i could go gugugaga over korean hot guys-Taecyeon-*drools.

Tell me how to resists those chocolate packs.Gosh.

tell me tell me tell me.

Anyway, Happy 18 birthday to my beloved

LEE JOJO.lol.

Syafiqah, happy 18th birthday.Among the three of us, im the only one who is still young.underage.gerrhhh.so uncool -.-' anyway, happy birthday.Sarangheyo! be happy happy selalu!!

Gotta fly away.

2010-05-09T23:57:00.005+08:00

you!are!so!not!nice!You!are!a!mean!jackass!You!You!You!

why?

='(

-updated-

Fuck the comparison.Fuck the intention.Fuck everthing you did.
Fuck you

W36L

2010-04-30T23:23:00.007+08:00

Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now

School was alright.
Everything seem pretty fine so far.
Got closer with the girls in the class.apart from that,
i got myself a pretty nice nick name.CIK PONNAK.
cause of my laughter -.-"

Two weeks of school
and todays was the second time i went down for lunch.
Had beef bolognese with ice coffee.
17 , 18 . 19
i spent a total of 20 bucks on food today.
guhret or what!

ps:I'll wait.I'll wait and see.i could endure a little while more.
i still have a little bit of faith left.i think.
and its running low.

So let's just pretend and make wishes out of airplanes

A's please

2010-04-25T15:28:00.003+08:00

i look like my niece and Arjuna look like my nephew.

It's weird for me to love the picture.It seems that i was so so close with him.haha.
School's been fine.I love the classmate though they are very quite.And i still need to improve on my presentation.bleargghh

money money lai lai

2010-04-19T00:39:00.002+08:00

I spent 100 bucks within 30 mins.
and another 15 bucks on food.

gosh.i shouldn't have make myself an atm card.

Contradicting

2010-04-17T01:30:00.003+08:00

Happy as i am.

Lucky that the recent module that i've covered was about personality and skills.And lucky that i've learnt a thing or two on the presentations.There is no point of nurturing you to become something that you are not.I just have to accept it.Deal with it.Or maybe discussed it?But you do realise that if we were to discuss,it wont lead to anywhere but silence.

I really need to polish up on my thinking skills and obviously on my english.Apart from that,i urgently need to gain more confidence and flush down my nervous break down.Really.It has only been three days of orientation and two days of school.Orientation was FUN but the two days of school was pure difficult for me to handle.Especially when most of my classmate speaks fluent English while i stutter and stuff.I really hate presentation what more presenting.Surprisingly,i am an introvert.I cant believe it :(

Lupin

2010-04-11T00:17:00.006+08:00

The burning heat,the cold hard stone,the freezing snow.One after another,within a duration of twenty-four hours.Vivid.Surreal.Fearsome.Not forgetting a big round creamy white obstical just went by,floating on air. Just wating for the big brightest star to be lowered in horror.And that,all the gates have closed.

updated;
need i remind you that Jang Guen Suk is coming to Singapore?Ouh dear.
:D

Heavy Rain + Picnic + Gossip + Fun = Outdated Pictures

1N2D

2010-04-07T20:02:00.004+08:00

Cinderella Sister.Ill endure for another 10 whole weeks for you to be upload fully.Until then,ill try not to enter mysoju.perfff,Taeyeon.But wait,there is still Oh!My lady,haiys.Si won.And then there is Personal Taste,Lee Minho.Haiyaaa.And School is starting next week.Great or What -.-".
However,on a brighter note,i am able to lay my eyes on Seuggi every friday night right before i close my eyes.oooo.me so corny.

YOU SHOULD WATCH 2PM TIK TOK MV.BEST BEST BEST!

Fuck you la

2010-03-31T19:18:00.003+08:00

WHEN I SAY I HATE IT,DOESN'T MEAN I HATE YOU.WHEN I SAY I HATE IT,IT MEANS THAT I HATE YOUR ACCUSATION.ISIT WRONG FOR ME TO TELL YOU THE TRUTH?
TILL YOU WANNA KICK ME OUT OF THE HOUSE?im sorry to say this,but youre too much.
IF I COULD VOMIT OUT THE FOOD I JUST ATE,I WILL.

just my rotten luck to eat the dish you cook today.

You are the thunder and I am the lightning.

2010-03-30T00:33:00.004+08:00

Yesterday brought back vivid memories.Memories of-runing under the pouring rain.Playing at the playground with our school uniform.Sliding down the slide with big wide smile. But that was six year back.Six long year.

During the sixth year of primary school,i'd actually had fun playing under the downpour with the lovely clique at the playground infront of Syafiqah's house.THere were no regrets even though i'd actually caught a cold the day after.

During the sixth year,befriend with the unglam love,again,i enjoyed it.Even though its just walking through the rain.Even though we're risking our live cause what more,it was really heavy rain and there were thunder and lightning every minute.

I wonder,after six years,will i get to taste this kind of enjoyment.By then,i'll be 24.Gosh.

Ps_make you feel what i feel.

C N Blue

2010-03-28T14:40:00.003+08:00

He says my arm is as huge as his.
my tummy as big as his.blerrghh.

'siapa last...gemok'.
sadly,i was the last one.fcuk la.
i should accept the fact.and im accepting the fact.HAHA

C N Blue.i love your song.

LeeSeungGi

2010-03-28T10:56:00.002+08:00

LEE SEUNG GI.you are so adorable.bohooooo.

Funny thing,we-my sis and me,like the same person.
i can go mad when i think of you,seuggi.

MonaLisa

2010-03-26T20:41:00.002+08:00

Loving his voice.....awwwwww

Remember Me

2010-03-20T01:04:00.005+08:00

The date with favourite girls was Awesome.Love Love Love.A perfect Getaway.

Women

2010-03-18T10:59:00.001+08:00

'Woman was made from the rib of man,
She was not created from his head to top him,
Nor from his feet to be stepped upon,
She was made from his side to be close to him,
From beneath his arm to be protected by him,
Near his heart to be loved by him'

Samurai X

2010-03-17T21:56:00.004+08:00

'Ombak dan pantai.Walau ada pasang surut,gelora melanda,mereka tetap bersama.Tiada siapa yang boleh memisahkanya.Sentiasa setia.Ombak selalu mengerjar pantai.Pantai setia menunggu ombak,Walaupun sakit dipukul ombak...'

Dear blogger,my minutes,hours of today was well spend.Watched kayaking early in the morning.Got my hair done,which im regretting now.Finished reading a novel within 8 hours.Also,done with 'Stars falling from the sky'.Superb drama.And also,finally i caught Samurai X the movie.My hero.

My run was,one word,exhilarating.And im proud to say that i accomplished it.i think i wont be joining any runs for the time being.Na uh.tiring man.

I will remember those three songs.hhahahahhah,haiya
Cheopo Cheopo Cheopo Cheopo.HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA.Fuck you la.

Run like the wind

2010-03-13T17:00:00.005+08:00

A month late it come.And when it does,I'm having diarrhoea leading to high fever.What luck (-.-')and im stuck in bed one whole day without consuming sufficient food.Whenever i do,ill then rush to the toilet.+__+

Well,hey blooger,im back and i feel good,Very good.Anyways,tomorrow will be the first ever big event thats happening in my life in 2010.Although im the youngest in the family,the last one,i hope i wont be the last in my family to cross the finishing line.geehee.Apart from that,i attended Admiralty Primary School AEP last Thursday and he was super duper cute with his classmate(3 justice)doing a dikir barat with a hindi beat.super cute.really adorable.

Having said that,im still sick,will i be able to run 16km tomorrow.Ouh God.i just hope i wont collapse while running.Gosh.

Autumn's Concerto

2010-03-02T16:57:00.006+08:00

Dear blog,
No one loves to be ignored,to be cheated nor to be used.i made my mistake,and for that,i am sorry.Being at the lowest point isn't a good thing.Useless,remorseful,a liar and ugly.HAHAHA.Its like acting a scene of a Korean/japan/Taiwan drama,difference is that,this is reality,not a drama neither a dream.once again,my apologies.

To dearest and most beloved friends,I'll be missing in action from this cyber/modern world.If you wanna get through me,just contact me through Aisyah lala(you're my wing girl) or my house phone,I'm letting my dear iPhone be dead for the time being.Having said that,i wont be joining you and the other retainers at pastamania tomorrow,nor will i join you guys this Saturday,the visit to Renata's palace,my sincerest apologies.

PS;Aisyah,just call my house whenever you re ready to watch that movie alright.
PS;its not entirely my fault that I'm infatuated by my own dream
PS;i just need some time alone.
PS;i just want my oppa to love me like old time(haha) :(

John.

2010-02-27T23:58:00.003+08:00

I had the sweetest dream today.if only its reality,i would be the happiest girl on earth.
Of all the person,i dream of you.Unexpectedly,it was you.Thinking of it just makes me smile from ear to ear.thats how crazy i was.Its like almost 6 years since i saw that wide forehead and hear that short tounge accent.HAHAHA.how cute.OMG.

Titanic.Titanic.Titanic.

(updated)
stupid bitch broke my spec into two pieces

20 more hours

2010-02-26T22:55:00.001+08:00

Sometimes i feel more like a housewife/domestic worker rather than a daughter/siblings

Avatar Or Titanic

2010-02-25T16:35:00.001+08:00

Just listening to 'My heart will go on"(titanic theme song),can make tears flow down.

Love

2010-02-24T02:00:00.006+08:00

"A hundred days have made me older...A thousand lies have me colder"

Its been a long time since i heard this song.Here i am lying down on the sofa in the living room at 2.04am in the morning blogging.With,loud,heavy snores accompanying me.Hah.Well,ouh well.
I found an excellent drama,which also reminded me of Titanic,Autumn's Concerto.It's a Taiwan drama though.Its worth watching,seriously,it is.Chapter six bites me.boohooo.

Guess what?theres no more snoring.Gahaa.

Dont you think that love is scary?

Define love.
why do we need to love?
where can we find love?
How do we love?
Who do we need to love?
When can we make love?

Do we like or love?
whats the different?

i used to ask a friend,what it meant by love,and his reply was,when two hearts are one.But i still dont get it.Sidetrack,abg aku baru ngigau.(hahah).Back to the topic.Why love,when there's no trust.why love when there's jealousy.Why love when you're controlled.Why love when there's no respect.Well,thats not LOVE at all.Thats bullying.love is not bullying.Love is very scary.IT could change anyone from bad to good or from good to bad.Vice versa.I'm not even sure why im being so sentimental about love.LOVE,LOVE,LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE.....maybe because im plain bored and all thats lingering in my head is Lee Seung Gi,Jang Guen Suk,Kim Hyung Joong.It wont hurt loving an idol-.-'

ff

well,talking about love,to dearest Aisyah anak Salleh.i've known you for about nine long years.its 118 months long.Fighting because of a guy,the bruise i cause you at your cheek,the watch that i accidentally made spoil.HAHAHA.funny moments.Happy 18 birthday babe.I may not be your best-girlfriend.however,i will still feel the pinch when youre at youre worst.bak pepatah,cubit peha kiri peha kanan terasa juga..Love ya babe!

Two love birds and a big ship

2010-02-21T16:33:00.002+08:00

Dear world,i have the sudden urge,or shall i say craving to watch Titanic.The last i set eyes on it was like years back.I mean really.When will Channel 5 broadcast the movie again?When can i get to shed a few gallons of tears?damn,i miss the movie.

yippeee

2010-02-17T20:13:00.004+08:00

Yippe!i've got hold of my Stilettos Sneakers already!Its been like 26 freaking long months since i've waited for it.Ever since i saw the shoe being used by the cartoons in Guitar Hero.Yeah.Only someone know how happy i was when i saw that stilettos.

When i show mom the stilettos.i thought she would freak out and torment me with words.BUT,i was wrong.geheeee.

Mines low-cut and in black.We-heeeeeeeeeeee!

Mums been nagging at me all the way cause i rarely stick my butt at home.Like seriously,the last i went out was on Saturday,which i had a double date and,fyi,it was fun :) ,even though almost all the shop at town area was close.CLOSE.also,it was my first time eating twice outside.really.
apart from that,Today,is considered one of the bestest day in year 2010.Really,i swear.im just overjoyed.dont mind me.

okay,i shall wait for American idol to start and than i will sleep soundly. Good Night people.

Ouh Dear

2010-02-16T22:24:00.002+08:00

I'm a girl with a lot of restriction.Knowing that,i have my own limits,i create my own one.I dont care if i hafta lose you or they or them.I'll decide what is best for me.

I just saw a landslide on the news..and it really breaks my heart.Sis said "Dunia dah nak kiamat"-the world is gonna end soon.

i still have tonnes of sins on my shoulder.millions.

you+me=?

2010-02-14T02:15:00.004+08:00

Sometimes i wonder.Why do he/she despise them so much.They din do any shit towards him/her.Each time i asked why.He/she woudnt wanna answer me and give me that look.Whats the look for dude/babe?God.im clueless.Don't leave me hanging la

Its been months since ive talk to you.i swear i was really glad that i could at least talk to you,even though its less than 5 minutes.God,seriously i miss you like dearly much.I really really miss you!i know i said i would call you back later.i'll call you tomorrow okay baeb.

..If im not self centered.If im not self centered.If im not self centered.If im not self centered.If im not self centered.If im not self centered.If im not self centered.If m not self centered..

Today's Valentine's Day also marks the Chinese new year!so Happy V'day and also Happy Lunar New Year yaw.

ps;its better to light the candle then curse the darkness.

(updated)

i wanna fortune cookie.cause three years back.i received one.and it told me to stop running away from my problems.and the fact that problems were piling up like mountains.

so,can i have a fortune cookie as a valentine's day gift?hehe

Daddy Daddy

2010-02-13T12:44:00.002+08:00

Daddy,i love your old look.
so handsome.tak bleh angs..

furthermore,he looked like the old timer actor.man!

Done

2010-02-09T21:47:00.004+08:00

Female's bestfriend

No matter how down you are,there are still people who feel a lot more worse.
like what my sister says 'small the pieces',get it?

Mr,twice will do.Enough.No thirds please.
:)

love/hatred

2010-02-05T14:20:00.004+08:00

For two consecutive evening/nights,ive been watching Shining Inheritence(about 29 hours).and Ouh My God,i fall in love with the actress.yes,de actress,Han Hyo Joo.She was absolutely stunning with a tiny puny mole just beside her lips.My gawd,i saw and angle.ge-hee.Adding on,the main actor,Lee Seung Ki, was a good catch too.Very very cute,awwwwww,me likey :)))))

i was feeling rather down lately.And memories keep on flashing back.The funny ones though.

Girls,do you remember the time when a friend of ours had insuffiecent money to board two bus instead of one.The time whereby we made a successful foolish/idiotic plan just to board a bus that cost us only 55 cents.The time when we usually hung out after our band practices at macdonalds.The time when we were lazy to walk to interchange.if you do remember,lets give it a big HAHA.if you dont,someone had to pretend to fall on the stairs at entrance of the bus just to create a scene whereby the bus driver will focus to that someone.yes foolish.and that someone happens to be me.

i miss the time i went swimming with the multiracial during secondary 1
i miss the time when i was shouting my lungs out to whoever cause i was so fed up with the class decoration while im in sec 2,not forgetting the class chalet.
i miss our one year anni,vietnam trip,sec3 camp and also fla's 16 and mine's 15 birthday party.
i miss singing with favorite 8 girls,bitchng and all the catfight,screaming and raising my voice at my Math teacher.hehe
i miss my desperate students,very much :(

and i miss you getting _____.hah.

tired

2010-02-02T14:44:00.000+08:00

I'm not your only child,mind you...and i too have feelings.

its too much

2010-01-30T23:16:00.002+08:00

Whats up with the ignoring?whats up with the childish attitude??Whats up with the crisis??Like hello?she's not feeling well you dumb ass!It's been 6 days.6 freaking long days.For God sake.

i just wanna be happy :(

tc

2010-01-28T21:55:00.001+08:00

Mega Disappointment.
sigh

Seletar

2010-01-24T17:18:00.010+08:00

A tiring day.
Morning headed to Changi.
Noon to evening baking session.
Night,picnic at seletar.

-_- Shagged -_-

Half pastMidnight,snorring like a pig.

Sentimental much

2010-01-22T12:48:00.004+08:00

Hey blogger.its been a really long time since i update.miss me much?

Well my days are pretty much fun.Either go out with mom and sis or my sister-lurb and also meeting him once in blue moon.Speaking of which,shopping with sister-lurb the other day was hilarious and i found this cute top at 77 street which offer me a great price.me likey.Mum has been nagging at me cause i rarely stick my butt at home which was a total lie.te-heee.While going out with the female of Misbari's, the sister's driving was killing me.corrupted F1 sia.

Speaking of children of Misbari,last night my drop dead handsome brother left for Japan.Purpose?for me to know and for you to find out(if you even bother).and he'll be back this coming friday,which is next week.bohoo.

Brother had downloaded The Lovely Bones.I swear its worth watching even though i don't really favor the ending cause it wasn't what i expected.Well a twist in the story is really good though.right?.If you dont have any idea on whats the line of the story about,its a bout a 14 year old girl who was raped and murdered.She then watches her family and murderer from haven.A really saddening story.

'An adaptation of the Alice Sebold New York Times best-selling novel, "The Lovely Bones," tells the story of Susie Salmon, who is murdered, but continues to observe her family on Earth after her death. Although she is detached from the world she once knew, Susie witnesses the impact of her loss on her loved ones, whilst her killer skillfully covers his tracks and prepares to murder again. In a tone that is both emotionally truthful, and darkly humorous, Susie tries to balance her desire for vengeance against the love she feels for her family and her need to see them heal; and ultimately comes to understand that the concept of family can encompass both the living and the dead.'

It seems that i've got a lot to blog about.But my mind just went blank now.Ouh yar.finally i remember.To dearest Ang Li Qun,aka shorty.happy 18 birthday.you re already legal.Wow.

Time is flying by very fast.I still cant believe babies that are born in year 1992 are/is soon to be 18.Is turning legal,maybe tomorrow,next week or even in a few months time.We are turning 18 soon.Yes.it is a big deal.Its really a big deal.Its the age that you are legal to do almost everything.Man.God.

anyhoose.See aisyahLaLa,I'm a good girlfriend.a sweet one too.I'm blogging because you asked me too.Happy much?

Okay till here.I wanna watch Julie and Julia.Hugs and kisses!<3

23

2010-01-16T00:08:00.004+08:00

To dearest sleger-est sister in the whole wide world,
HAPPY 23 birthday eyhhhh.Dah tua gila kakak kita nie.

maybe im the most irritating sister.
maybe i dislike you at times.
maybe i think youre just another blood thats ruining my life.
but trust me,theres no maybe in my i love you.
Thanks for always being there when i needed you

Happy 23rd birthday dear sis.
hugs and kisses <3

Fate?

2010-01-15T00:17:00.003+08:00

Was really bummed that i failed my English for the second time around.
and i feel so demoralized.again and again.
Having said that,i was a lil disappointed with my result for maths cause i was expecting a higher grade.
Overall,alhamdulilah.i'm still eligible for poly.im praying real hard,hoping that i wont get into that poly.i gonna suck big time if i were to enter there.

Dear God,i rest my case.

ps:yes.fate

Midnight.BlackVan.

2010-01-09T04:14:00.002+08:00

God.
One after another.

its just scary.it really is.

from the bottom of my heart

2010-01-07T22:52:00.005+08:00

Its just totally different.
Really different.
Definately different.

IT'S TIME...
I can't believe its really fading.Slowly fading.Unfortunately fading away.
no biggie -_-'

its hard for me to say 'i miss you' now :(
T.O
just...be careful.

Sidetrack,I'm working tomorrow.and i guess I'll be doing SAMPLING.
What the Fuck?I'll just hope i could see small kiddos to help me be busy.
think Busy.

Girl,i love my life.If God Willing,i would really love to live a longer life cause I'm still full of sins.And i need all the time i have to repent.insyaAllah.

God,i don't wanna go work with contacts.i need my specs.Sadly,i misplaced it again.Forever sia Nurul.

Dine with me.

2010-01-06T20:10:00.005+08:00

Okay.thats about it.Anyways.i had tonnes of fun with the primary school mates.One darah Mat-Salleh,another one muka mcm one malaysian actor.Seriously,they look alike.But anwar is skinner.

Apart from catching up with one another,we followed the Diva shopping and rounding CityHall to Somerset then to Orchard.And ended up seating infront of Coffee Clubhouse.and there goes our day.

The sweetest yet creepiest message i've got recently was:
'God gave me your number'
but after my heroin replied;bother me again and i will report to the police.
he chicken out and ended the message with 'bay' which i assume as bye.
teehee

Apart from that,i took this quiz on facebook which say
Which kampung name are you?
and coincidently my name is Aminah Jenab Binti Lebai,
Fyi,my Mums name is Aminah.Wohooo

well,this video is actually funny cause this three thought i was taking a photo.
one back out cause she is afraid that i would zoom into thier faces and snap one.
then the other two remain still like a statue.
REAL CUTE SIA.
Especially the the one in white.veryy cute.OMG

Patamania

2010-01-03T21:48:00.014+08:00

Two times i went out,two times i ate pastamania.
and im two times bigger.what the hack,im still happy :)

well,first was when i went out with SyidahDarla on 23 December.one day after her bday..
We caught Avatar.and it was worthwhile.it was Splendid.it was sweet.It was touching.It was superb.Well,i wanna watch it again.Whose up for it??text me.we'll watch the 3D one this time:)

Well the second time was with this bunch of retards,on 31 December.Yeah.the last day of 2009 :) Before having lunch there,We caught Alvin and the Chipmunks the part two.And again,the movie was awesome.So so awesome that i think i laugh out the loudest there.i swear it was worth it.

Well this is the overdue pictures.a year overdue i shall say.hehe:)i know theres tonnes of picture of me.Even im bored of it..what the hack,im not the photographer of the day.Angalap was the one.and you can see that she took what kind of pictures :)
heh.Sorry beb.anyway,tomorrow is the start of the school term.Geeehhhh.

Well the good news is,im getting my pay on tuesday,the sad thing is that,im not gonna earn much this month cause i'll be only working on friday saturday and sunday.Hmmm.i need a second job.Two job.yes!hopefully i can find one.bohoooo :(

2010

2010-01-02T00:26:00.004+08:00

My 2009 was Splendid,though i had time-s when i was at the lowest.
Just hope that this year would be even a better year :)

to bbies,i know we took,i mean Stinky took tonnes of picture,but guess what,the lappy cant detect the memory card.im so so sorry.

well,im not to late to wish Happy new year hor!Well,
HAPPY NEW YEAR ;)

Ps;i know im not alone.i got you :)

Scaredy cat

2009-12-29T20:57:00.005+08:00

i din no that i was this timid,this scared when it comes to this type of situation.I need my old temper back.Like Fer-REAL/time-being.now,I'll just have to do what i do best.
Cry :'(

Who are you?

2009-12-29T03:31:00.005+08:00

Its gonna be four in 30 minutes time.Well,im not gonna say...'yet im still wide awake'.so and so.geez.Well ouh well.Trust me,im tired,im exhausted,im fatigue.its just that theres tonnes of things thats has been bothering me.

/
;/

Upmost,work.
Work work and more work.Eve of Christmas i ended work around 0145 which was supposingly supposed to end 45mins earlier-.-And by two we than flagged a cab home.Probably,it will be the same routine for my new year's eve just that this time around,maybe i had to take the cab alone.So,i'll be counting down for new year and partying at D.D uh. Partying in a way like,
'Donut for sale!,buy4 free 2,buy 5 free 1' or busy kissing the mop to the floor.
yea.im with donut now,and i feel like a dough,so full and round '-_-'

..
Speaking of new year,i have yet to make a new year resolution.Well,i did make some for this year but,i think i achieve none of it.Im certain cause i know i made an oath that i would not laugh horribly or whatsoever.but it appears that i cant even keep a promise that i made to myself.geez.I just hope that this time around,i will make my mummy proud of me.i really hope that would happen.Hopefully i manage to get acceptable grades which will offer me at least the first four courses of which i would really love to get in.Apart from that,2010,i know that you will be better then 2009 :)
;;
Talking about years,i miss the year of 2006.That year was the year that i finally had my first ever bestfriend.Whatmore,we even had the same birth dates,just that she was a year older then me.back then,its like we had the same fate and we called ourself the 9augustcurse.But as days pass by,we grew further apart due to conflicts,misunderstanding and BGR that crop up.I just wanna say,babe,i miss you.you've drifted so far.So very far.But if i coincidently saw you,maybe i would slap you first then hug you.haiya,fadhillah,aku rindu kau and it hurts me hearing you walking this road.

;;
Our stteaamyy eyess

Speaking of friends,i miss my bunch of Sayang-sayang Syidah,Zierra,Stinky/Smelly/Shortie/SY/Gerard/Fiqah.What moore,it been a really long long time since i meet With the lovelies Ain,Erika,Fakhirah,Hanafi,Faiz,Izzat.we rarely meet.Maybe even never meet.See,how far we've drifted :(

:'(

im not scared.m not afraid,m not terrified.dont call me in the morning nor afternoon nor night.simply saying.DONT EVER CALL ME.and i dont even know you how can i give you my number.

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Alamak.i misplaced my specs ug.gtg.i wanna search for it before i go blind eyhh.i'll update more if i want tooo
alright cheese!

,,

nausea

2009-12-26T22:08:00.004+08:00

at times like now is when i needed you the most.

im sick :(
my body is aching all over.
i wanna eat porridge.
im sick :(

yesterday,December 25, was my parents 38 years of marriage.
38 freaking long years.
its like 21 years older then me.

(u)
Craving for a lot of soupy food.
and maggie mee.
God,i'm working tomorrow,i missed work today,should i ditch work tomorrow too??
i dont feel like working anymore.I should have listen to mummy and be a little good girl and learn knitting for this long holiday :(

PS:is it too late for a Christmas wish?

Rusty

2009-12-21T19:41:00.002+08:00

They came home with huge souvenirs.
Coincidentally,they bought a cute wallet for me which cause 14 bucks there.
the 'coincidence' part was that,it is the same brand of wallet that i bought days ago.
the difference is that,the one i bought is bigger.
if i had known,i should have waited for their return.
and i wouldn't haven burn forty bucks just like that.
ka-poof.

Kiwak.we're drifted apart.like seriously.

IMY

2009-12-20T22:38:00.002+08:00

A pretty rough start for a Sunday morning.Well what do you expect,i had to work.I got mad at Three person at three different timings.And i scolded three different person,which is the same three person of the three different timings.And all the three person is older then me.

Early in the morning,i heard birds chirping lively,but the heart says,"God,these bird are freaking noisy"Then,the brain told me,"Kiwak,there's no place in heaven for you."
Afterwhich,i got angry cause i couldnt find my working pants,and i know i din misplaced it.Eventually,got me pissed off and scolded the mom.Then,the brain reminded me again"Confirm there is no place for me in heaven."
I got hold of my semi-wet pants.While ironing it,the mom scold her.i caught a phrase which really knock me out,"my child loves me,but because of this pants,she scolded me"
Well it was her fault.Her is really stupid.i swear.really bahalol.
i got pretty upset for my doings and of cause i ask for her forgiveness.

In the afternoon,the 49 year old women got me pissed.Seriously pissed.I've never find fault with any adults before.Those who are close to me knows that i respect the elders-whom are older then me.(well,except for the time whereby i sort of rebel to Mr Krishna,you know,i know).So,she really pisses me off.Well,maybe i got the courage to tell her off because im bigger and taller then her??HAHA.or maybe,the fact that every one hates her?Sheesh.

Well,at night, i was reaaaaallyyy exhausted.What more,yesterday i was working and i din have sufficient rest.Kiwak.I was really looking forward to finish work at 1800.Then the supervisor extended met till 1900.But he then told me to extend a bit more,cause one of my colleague had to go for break,which is that old women -.- after she was done with her break,he asked me to extend again which was when i showed the temper.LOL.'member takot sia'
He pestered me to stop and punch out.but i just continued the job that he asked to do till its 2110.then i ended my work.

I cant believe that im working on the eve of Christmas and on the day its self.haiyaBaru nak chill chill mango.What more,im working closing,which probably will end after mid night.Thanks eyh.
Wahhhh.this post is so lengthy.anyways.Someone's birthday is coming up soon eyhh.saper la dia tuu

Congrats

2009-12-18T20:10:00.003+08:00

Dearest Smelly Stinky and Shortie,
are you guys gonna attend the outing that's held on the 23?
i hope you are.

Currently chatting with the male-beb.irritating as ever.hmmm.i wonder how my 'brother' is doing.Having said that,he still owes me chocolate.

I miss the 'Desperate Students'.I miss mugging for exams.I miss doing maths.I miss playing 'tai ti',i miss Mr Krishna.LOL.and not forgetting,i miss the whole bunch of the 4EDrama mama.

i was given off today.Supposedly wanted to attend Syidah chalet but i had to accompany my mummy for her monthly check up.So upon arriving the hospy,We came to know that The check-up was post-poned to 15 dec that was 3 days ago.Which she had missed it -.-

Initially i was given off for tomorrow too,but due to someone,i had to cover her shift -.-

anyways,i take this time to congratulate my dear junior,Aishah Rashid!!!Belajar rajin rajin eyhhh.One day,i blanja you something!

and yarr.Gerard Xavier too for passing you know what,all for the first time.Congrats eyhh budak.Shall treat you one day too!

i cant wait for my turn next year.yeahhh!mum gave me the green light already!weheeee!!

And syidahh,i cant wait for our date next week eyhh.

Telephone

2009-12-13T19:54:00.002+08:00

Initially,it was supposed to be sung by Britney Spears.but somehow,it doesn't fit her voice.
And it sounded perfectly fine for Lady Gaga's

Twin brothers and sis left for Aussie earlier this morning.and i mean it early in the morning
aiseyhhmannn.i wanna go seyhhh.HAHA

D.D

2009-12-12T21:26:00.002+08:00

i have nothing to blog about.Seriously,nothing.I've received my pay and somehow spending it feels so bad,so weird.I wanna save it up but somehow i cant find my bank book.And yeah,to much event is coming up and i need money.So weird?Hah.

I've gain alot of experienced after working almost a month there.Like how irritated you will get entertaining your customer.How a person dresses and yada yada yada.Working in a food 'industry' has its bad points.Furthermore,the food is provided and its scrumptious.You will tend to eat and eat and continue eating.Ended up getting more and more fats to be accumulated in you body.LIke a lot.Seriously.

I've been working night shifts lately.And doing closing with the funny people is really worthwhile.
Well,the sad thing is that,im working in the morning tommorrow.Sigh.

Alright.Cheese!

2009-12-10T03:05:00.002+08:00

I'm exhausted.
Both mentally and physically.
Im still waiting for my pay.how could they think of giving me half the pay only.
Freaking Half.Bullshit.

too late.

ps;i was hoping,but you din arrive.

one day,i might just hop in the levis shop.

sigh

2009-12-07T01:44:00.003+08:00

i just experienced something very embarrassing.
and i hope im not sick.

im tired,im fatigue but i cant seem to put myself to sleep.
its drawing nearer and nearer.
imy.

Jacob

2009-12-03T19:27:00.002+08:00

To Stinky-Winky,I MISS YOU MORE LA DEY

Good news is that i watched New Moon.Like most says,the starting was boring.Indeed it was a bit boring.But overall,its not a disappointment.Well,Taylor's Bods were really Awesome.Chocolate pack thingy.Heh.For the appearance,i'm in the Team Jacob,cause most of the guys in the werewolves pack were really hot except for Sam.Like seriously.But for the heart(?)if you know what i mean,im obviously in team Edward.Anyway,i think Carlisle(?),which is Edwards dad,is extremely hot..Whaahhh.Really breath taking sia team Jacob.

Kiwak,maut kepe.

anyways.i love my working colleague,They are really one of a kind.What more can i say,im happy.at least for now.But on the other hand...

its like E W W.hahahha.Great mind think alike.im just being random.Ouh crap.im starting my crap.

Sigh

2009-12-02T17:38:00.003+08:00

Off today.
Im getting used to the hours of standing.
Got used to secretly stuffing donut into my mouth.
Used to having chocolate sliding down at the brimmed of my mouth
and lastly,
used to slip on the wet slippery floor..
and soon,im getting my pay.yeahyeahyeahh!

Gosh.im gaining weight.

two oreo donut.
HEHEHE.-you know i know.

I cant wait to see my bbygirl tomorrow.

back to square one

2009-11-29T23:07:00.003+08:00

'i licked my own spit'

Sometimes,i can't keep my words.Tried as hard as i could too but i cant deny the fact that i miss you.Hah.Typical Jannah.You appear and disappear and reappear back any time you want too.And for that,I'll be making ridiculous decision that ended up hurting either me or you.
I'm confused now.Did i make the right decision after asking for the separation.Why is this 'relationship' of us is really complicating?
I know you'll be reading this,so,can you give me an answer?

Maybe I'm sad due to that complication.i still cant get it out of my head.if you know what I'm saying.it keeps lingering in my head.its inevitable.

There must be a reason why i am holding on to you.Its is because you're the longest?Or i have a lot of memories with you or is it that I'm still waiting for that guy i knew Four years back?I know i have been the sucky-est girl back then.From the way i treated you,i admit,i took you for granted,i treated you like a spare tyre and that my friends are my first priority.
Whenever I'm pissed off,to whoever,you'll be the one i vent my anger on.I admit,i can never scold them like how i scold you and i don't even know why.i did a lot of bad/worst things to you even on our monthsary.it is still vivid.I wanted you to be friendly with my friends,befriend with them,but ended up i scolded you due to jealousy.i know,imma freak.Thinking back,why did you still stick with me like a glue?Having said that,I'm still surrounded with guilt for always hurting you verbally and also physically.I am sincerely very sorry.

Life is always fair.now,I've gotten my retribution.Karma,i did tell you that I'm prone to karma.After all that i had done towards you but you kept holding on to me.Why not now i do the same too?

I'm not materialistic,I'm not asking much.All i want is just your care,concern and loyalty.
not forgetting LOVE.

Life is like gambling.you lose some and you earn some.
i just hope that i could keep holding on.

;
anyhoose, i have change my blog song.Its from YOU"RE BEAUTIFUL drama.
NICE KAN??lol

You're beautiful

2009-11-27T19:23:00.004+08:00

My sis caught New Moon last night.
she caught NEW MOON.it was sneak preview.
if i had known,i report sick for work seyh.

However,she said the movie was a disspointment.
Apart from Jacob hot bods,it wasnt as good as twilight.
Just MEGA dissapointment for her.

but,i think im going to disagree,cause some youtube-bers said is was worth wathing.
lets just say,most youtube-ber that i came across with said it was really good.
Sheeessh.im really sad.

i wanna watch New Moon la deyh.

(u)
Jang Guen Suk

he really is good looking.dont believe me,watch the drama.
its like awwww.awwwwww.awwwwww.

aiseyman.melts.melts

Jang Geun Suk

2009-11-26T12:35:00.002+08:00

Got home last night from work.
Decided to watch the earlier parts of YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL.
cause yea,i din manage to watch it.i swear its freaking hilarious.
NO JOKE.
furthermore,the lead actor,Jang Geun Suk is effing handsome loh.
and the lead actress is very very cute.
seriously,you wont regret watching it.adding on,the songs were very nice.

So yeah.i've watch the drama till about half past six.
and believe it or not,i decided to go for a jog.
Got home,and took a three hour nap.and now here i am blogging.
Ps,im working later,will i survive with just three hours of sleep??
hopefully.

you see,this is what Dramas do to you,the addictive one.
Now i know how i spend my time waiting for results previously.
im still waiting for YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL part 10 to be load.
im thinking of buying the CD when i got my pay.
HAHAHAHA.

speaking of after getting my pay.

1)Polaroid,ive been wanting it since ages
2)my you know that heels,its very rare lah
3)another stilettos
4)long sleeves tops.geeh,insufficient of the nice one

this is what is a must get for me.

Boston Cream

2009-11-24T23:35:00.003+08:00

Really really weird.
Very weird
How the hell did i even dream that kind of dream.

Today was tiring.
saw some familiar faces.
thats about it.

Having said that,
i miss my friends,my 'brother'
you know,the indian and the chinese
Angalamprameswary and Ang Li Qun,i MISS you retards la
its like effing much.
i miss asking for free chocolate.HAHAHAH

alright.Cheese!

bubu chacha

2009-11-23T13:54:00.004+08:00

i cant wait for the 3rd!!!!
Team Edward,here me come!!
cant wait to get me eyes on Taylor Lautner.
hahahah.
hot hot heat.

Geeeh!
i think im madly in love with,"You're Beautiful"
Its like Coffee Prince,but much better.And the Actors is so drop dead handsome.
awwww.awwww.awwwwwww
me love.

Someone is getting on my nerves.
Lembabeh betul uh.

apart from that,im dissapointed.
bohooooo.

bomboom

2009-11-22T10:46:00.002+08:00

i cant believe they spelled my name as

SITI NURYL JANNAH BTE MISKARI.

Sis:kecian nama ayah dah jadi Kari

(u)
Finally,i catch Sylvia Ratonel singing Cry.
i support her man!

2009-11-21T14:15:00.002+08:00

one by one,
one after another,
again and again
hmmmmm.what else??

you just cant keep your mouth shut.I've known you too long that i know you're the one who blurt it out.Some shit you are.

am i the stairs that you could step over to reach the top?

I'm fatigue.i don't feel like working today.furthermore,my lil munchkin are home.and i cant entertain her anymore.boohooooo.

anyways,I've created a journal.
I'll be on and off here aite?

alright.cheese

i wanna read that book

2009-11-19T21:34:00.003+08:00

one and half of Mac Spicy.With one large fries for dinner.
and caramel frappe.
geheeeee.gosh,i ate like a gorilla..

So yeah,went changi airport just now.and gosh
that jimmy choo heels caught my eyes.yet...

i miss my secondary three days.
especially during my vietnam trip and also sec 3 camp.

Te Amor

2009-11-19T12:11:00.003+08:00

Currently brother is playing Modern Warfare TWO.and here i am rotting at home.
well,not exactly.Finally,my off day.yeahness.
Work was alright.New environment,new faces and new experience.
i've been working there for three consecutive days,and still,i dun feel like eating the food that was serve for us.HAHA,Drinks will do.
"high class" drinks kepe?

ps:one of the worker's there look like someone i know,the peragai pun sebiji.

well,probably,heading to airport later.
no wait,i have to do alot of things today.Gosh.

Alright!cheese!

making me dizzay

2009-11-18T11:01:00.003+08:00

I will never get sick of falling down.
first day of work ended with a kiss on my butt.
bohoo
and im working today.
off day tomorrow.yeah!

anyways.
Happy Birthday Budak kecik!
finally 17 keper.

its sweet you know.

i left my hand and heart at the dancefloor

2009-11-15T22:27:00.005+08:00

This is scarring me a hell lot.
and i really don't want 'that period' to repeat itself.i really wouldn't wanna experience that situation ever again.EVER AGAIN.
Why do they practice this kind of stuff.Why do they wanna make us suffer for their wrong doings?
get what i mean?

having said that,
im really scared.i could even pee in my pants.too bad,im wearing pampers now.geheee.
gee.im making fun of myself.Ops-si

(u)
Lady Gaga New album sounds amazing.
me likey.
only five days and it hit not a million but NINE MILLION plus

GOSH,see how popular she is.

Caught in a bad Romance

weheee

2009-11-15T18:55:00.001+08:00

Ouh honeeyyyy.
We got the job-si.

off to body shop!

2009-11-14T22:43:00.002+08:00

just random post

hate it when i came across picture of taylor swift kissing Taylor Lautner.

sheeesh
now im considering,whether should i watch V'day

2009-11-14T04:50:00.001+08:00

i just hope that he will call ASAP.
damn.i need that job badly.

i need money,i cant plausibly keep asking ibu for money kan.
ish.

Spinning around

2009-11-14T03:56:00.004+08:00

Its 0356 am and I'm still wide awake,i cant seem to put my eyes to rest despite the fact i spend my afternoon walking around Singapore.

Apart from longing to hear your voice,apart from missing your touch,apart from missing you really bad and apart from yearning to meet you,theres this solitude spot around the corner of the heart unwilling to work things out and make things right.Its been almost a month.~~Surprisingly~~i din break down,maybe cause i am so used to fall over and over again.I'm really getting used to it.Furthermore,i have better more important things to concern about,plus,i dun want it to be a routine and affect my daily life.
We were so cheesy,so happy back then.What happen to us now.Its exactly 4 years and 4 days since we known each other and still we could not interact with each other normally.Yes we were once close,now?Previously,when things din work out for us,there were chances of us getting back together.Now?I'm unsure myself.Maybe yes,maybe no.i wonder,from a question,it led to this huge misunderstanding,and when this misunderstanding were added with a little bit of salt and vinegar,it led to another problem.Gee,I'm so happy :(
And ill be meeting you today,and i don't know how to react :( i think I'll be happier running and keep running away from the problems rather then solving the unsolved.Furthermore you'll be gone in one month time,at least,it will benefit me.and yes.i am SELFISH.

Ps;i still remember the time when i was painting my art paper 1 on the canvas,it was so dramatic.HAHAHAH

Youre just like a tattoo.
0447am

Bad Romance

2009-11-13T23:40:00.004+08:00

She is certainly more beautiful in this video,that's my opinion,but one thing thats not gonna change is the clothes shes wearing.Weird but original.
She is MORE gorgeous in this video,She really look different.
and she is very very very thin.

and
andand
andandand

i want a hairless cat.

a JOB well done

2009-11-13T20:13:00.003+08:00

A good sunny day for me,
even though its pouring outside.

Just afraid that i'll be gaining wait *prays*

(u)
im like a pregnant girl,two to three months maybe??

Long john Silver for late lunch,
early Dinner;
(back home)mum special green spicy fried rice,
homemade spagetti which apparently is delicious,
and for dessert
chocolate brownies,with two scoops of vanilla ice cream.

the Spagetti and brownies was given by my neighbour,as they were having a mini party for
thier kiddos-birthday party.
shessssh,they even gave a portion of thier cake.
to bad,there werent any room left for my tummy to fill in.

im so very full,i feel like vomiting.i swear.
i eat like a pig today.Gosh!

Love and Time

2009-11-11T07:56:00.002+08:00

bored,i decided to read back my archives.
Sheesh,i was so cheesy back,i mean really back then.
Gosh,what was i thinking.i was reading through and i found this,it is really true.

Once upon a time, there was an island where all the feelings lived: Happiness, Sadness, Knowledge, and all of the others, including Love. One day it was announced to the feelings that the island would sink, so all constructed boats and left. Except for Love.

Love was the only one who stayed. Love wanted to hold out until the last possible moment.

When the island had almost sunk, Love decided to ask for help.

Richness was passing by Love in a grand boat. Love said,
"Richness, can you take me with you?"
Richness answered, "No, I can't. There is a lot of gold and silver in my boat. There is no place here for you."

Love decided to ask Vanity who was also passing by in a beautiful vessel. "Vanity, please help me!"
"I can't help you, Love. You are all wet and might damage my boat," Vanity answered.

Sadness was close by so Love asked, "Sadness, let me go with you."
"Oh . . . Love, I am so sad that I need to be by myself!"

Happiness passed by Love, too, but she was so happy that she did not even hear when Love called her.

Suddenly, there was a voice, "Come, Love, I will take you." It was an elder. So blessed and overjoyed, Love even forgot to ask the elder where they were going. When they arrived at dry land, the elder went her own way. Realizing how much was owed the elder,

Love asked Knowledge, another elder, "Who Helped me?"
"It was Time," Knowledge answered.
"Time?" asked Love. "But why did Time help me?"
Knowledge smiled with deep wisdom and answered, "Because only Time is capable of understanding how valuable Love is."

true??yeahh,cheesy jannah!

2009-11-10T18:15:00.002+08:00

The pass is haunting me.
I'm afraid that it will repeat itself.

i know i did my best.
in fact the papers were manageable-excluding my humanities.
but,why do i have this feeling that my results are gonna be
a let down,and that I'm gonna let my family down again.
again and again and again jannah.

this overwhelming feeling just reeks

GeeGeeGee

2009-11-10T15:16:00.000+08:00

its kinda cute.

EMMM

2009-11-10T00:45:00.003+08:00

They have big Ego
They think that the world revolves around them
They are always right
They are in their own dimension.
They seek revenge but din realise

they are what i called immature boys
i repeat,IMMATURE BOYs

Felt the pinch?yeah,im referring to you

and what theyy need is just a shot in thier butts
cause they are irritating maggots and annoying faggots.

and ouh Gerard-si,from that convo i realised many things.
hahahhaha,and deary,i know how to take care of myself
HAHAHAHAHAHHAAHAHAH

LOL

2009-11-09T18:51:00.002+08:00

LOL for the day

"i wanna be anorexic
but i wanna have fats at my boobs and butt"

(Edited)
weird creepy guy is calling me.
he sound so pervertic.

Dang

2009-11-08T19:20:00.002+08:00

Cause I remember every word that you said
It all just keeps spinning around in my head

spend the whole day playing BULLY and rotting at home.
mum din even when out.ergh.if i had known,i had gone out playing pool.

2009-11-07T19:03:00.002+08:00

DJ Hero is fun.
but its darn difficult.yeah,i played it.
since brother is off to work,and sis needs to study for her exams,
i had the chance to try it out.yeay me!

i think its a good way too lose some kilograms,
LOL

Now i know how hard it is to be a DJ,to spin the records(?) the black round thing,
and being a super rock star,who either plays the guitar,drum or sing.
Furthermore,this is just a game,but they are playing the real thang!

Word up

2009-11-07T15:06:00.004+08:00

Brother finally bought DJ HERO.
yeah,so probably i'll be playing it tomorrow or the day after,
why?
well,i din fork out the money thats why,well,who cares,ill be playing it soon anyway.

im darker now and i feel so fucked up.
Thursday i had to clean up my room and i've thrown away all the paper works i did during school days.and the plan to have dinner at the dam with my babes and dude was cancel.
boohooo.:(
yesterday itself was a pretty tiring day for me.
surprisingly i went for a jog with anga in the morning,it was totally impromptu.
after which,we went swimming.
wahh,i lost touch in swimming. :(
evening was supposedly planned to play bowling.
again,it was cancelled. :( to much saddness in two consecutive days.
duh uhh
however,again with anga,we watched 'This is it",2130
im so sorry to all those MJ fan,i am a fan too.
but i swear,i was super duper tired after a hectic two days.
and eventually i slept after watching an hour of it.
having said that,the documentary is really boring.
just like that i burned my 10 bucks.
duh uhhhh.

apart from that,earlier in the morning,around 0530
mum scolded me like ______ cause i reach home late.
and i need to accompany her to pasar geylang.
im really tired.my body is aching.sighh.

2009-11-06T07:03:00.002+08:00

Did you hear????

Abracadabra,FT Island,T-Max is coming to Singapore!!!!!
Aigooo,Aigooooo!
next month,i think 12 december.

how i wish Wonder Girls,SS501 or Hwang Bo is too.
bohooo.

the bad news is that,by then my sis will be out of the city,
no friend to go with,and the early bird tickets have sold out.urgh!

White lies

2009-11-05T22:09:00.003+08:00

Jennifers Body??

it was okay.She is hot,well,really hot i must say.
there was one part that was a turn off for me.yeaa.thats all i can say.

Apart from that,
theres like "wantooonne"(inside joke) of cats in my neigbourhood.Maybe im lying but theres like 5 cats around my block.Alot kann?

I hate cats.
having said that,i love kittens.contradicting??
Gerard even promised to buy for me a kitten in future,if i were to live with him.
due to some experiance we encounter together one night.
i miss that kitten.bohoo
and when the kitten had fully grown and become a cat,ill kick it out of my house.
Haaahahah.Mean??told you so i hate cats.

Ouh yar,outing with the guys were cancelled due to the bad weather.
and we had postponed our outing to idk when.
wahhh,we were like so looking forward to the outing.sheessssh!

i wanna go dam badly.i waannaaa cycle there.

bobobo

2009-11-05T16:25:00.002+08:00

Hopefully the rain would stop

Pray for the rain to stop.
ouh pretty please.

i wanna go cycling again.
i wanna go dam.ouhpretty please.
rain please stop

hmmm

2009-11-04T23:08:00.004+08:00

Im left with only a paper which apparently is in a few days time.
yes.approximately a week time?

Someone just need to rack up the past and destroy my mood.
thanks to that someone.
Where did the phrase 'everybody makes mistake' at that point of time?
even Miley Cyrus sang that song.
urghh.
You dont need to remind me,cause i know.i know.

to you;we're drifting apart,youre just abnormal.

Since currently im free from exams,
its a must for me to indulge myself in working.but...
i must find a job first.

Apart from that,i cant wait for tomorrow's 'gathering'
its like been a long long long time since we went out together.

For now,lets have our budget dinner okay guys??
im craving for murtabak.

PS:LIE and HIDE the truth.
hmmmmmmmmmmm,is there any different?